S.E.X.

It's different yet the same for each of us

Something more than just a rush

The whisper in her ear that makes her warm to the touch

Slowly

Stroking my finger tips up and down the crease of her back

She doesn't have to say a word

By the way she curves I know she likes that...

She slowly takes my finger and rubs it gently across her lips

Then places it in her warm mouth sucking on it

Just enough to get my attention

It's as if someone plugged me into a socket because I'm definitely turned on

But she won't let me come any closer

She blindfolds me with her head tie securing my hands to the bedpost

Putting her in complete control

Maneuvering over my awaiting body

I quiver at the thought of her letting me go  

She gyrates her wet pussy just an inch or so over my mouth with the sweetest nectar

Dripping on the bottom of my lip...

I'm not in a rush

I patiently wait for more to come down before I steal a taste  

My soldier is ready for his orders

Standing at full attention

She welcomes him with the softest kiss

Just below the tip, she knows me oh so well

Each kiss causes my soldier to swell that much more

She asks if I like it, but before I can respond she placed her fat juicy pussy on my awaiting face...  

It fit so snuggly in my mouth as if it was meant to be there

And just before I could savor the moment

She put my hard penis in her mouth

The intensity just got turned up a notch

Since her pussy was occupied with my face, I placed my lonely finger in her asshole

It grabbed it with vacuum like force

Her pussy is getting even wetter

As I nibble on her clit

Just when I think it couldn't get any better

She cums right on my face

I have the milk mustache without the flatulence

I break free from my restraints and slam her on her back

Spreading her shaking legs and massaging her warm clit

With my super hard penis teasing her

I place the tip inside

I can feel her walls contracting trying to lure me deeper into her pleasure center but I resist making it even more stimulating for the both of us 

Then when she least expects it and is just about to give up

I jam my manhood deep into her awaiting hot steaming pussy

Her mouth opens with a scream as if she just won a million dollars

But she's been rewarded in another way

I'm pushing her body to its limit with each stroke

She grasps her belly

I slow up wondering if she's had enough but she tells that I better not stop and assures me she's up to the challenge

I slowly work my free hand around her neck gently choking her as I push my plug further into her socket.

I turn her over on her belly

I can see glimpses of her perfectly shaped ass from the minuscule light provided by the moon that peaks through the window

I can feel myself about to explode just before I do I snatch my slimy cock from her dripping pussy and I ejaculate all over her belly spelling my name

2:59 am

It's 2:59 am few seconds from 3 am

I find myself staring at your number

Written on a crumbled up piece paper

Buried deep in my pocket...

I wonder if you’re sleeping, maybe you’re wide-awake

Making love to him but whispering my name

Seeing my face and feeling my body

These late night fantasies are taking over

Possibly even replacing thoughts of my present love

Damn

Only five minutes have passed but I find myself staring at the clock

Slowly time creeps by

My heart beats fast and my breathing gets heavy

It's now 3:07 am

I can’t take this anymore

………..I’m calling you

Right before I dial the last number

My Galaxy S 3 rings

It's you

Sounding sexy

Soft voice

Filled with the same enthusiasm as myself

3:10 am

I'm wondering do you miss me

You wish I were there?

We continue making small talk

Both trying to get to the point

Avoiding our purpose

Making it even more interesting

3:15 am

I’m undressing you

Slowly

Whispering sweet nothings

Hearing your soft moans

Makes it well worth the wait

Knowing I can please you better than he can

Not in a rush

Giving you descriptions

Of soft touches

Silk sheets and burning candles

Tell me your desires...

You want me to kiss what?

Lick where?

Sure baby it’s about you

Your fantasies

Your demands...

I can hear your background change

Your breathing changes

I can hear noises

You got music playing

Anyway back to the moment

I’m not touching you, but is this cheating?

By 3:25 am I wish you were here

We have to do this!

Lately you said it’s been hard to get away

By the moaning on the other end

I can tell you’re playing with passion

Don’t stop until you explode

My soldier is at full attention

Waiting for your commands

Marching back and forth

3:50 am

Did you cum?

How do you feel?

Can we have more than this?

Can I touch you with my hands and not just my words?

These fantasies are they possible?

4:00 am

Confession

I want you in my arms, not in my dreams

Laying in my bed...

Wearing what you came into the world with

I want to explore your body

Giving you kisses from head to toe

Not missing a spot

Come on be selfish

I want it to be all about you

Your feelings

Your pleasure

Closed eyes

Music playing that probably caused our existence

Not in a rush

Nothing extra

Just me... You

Your passion and my soldier

4:21am

A knock at the door

Disrupts my thoughts

It’s you

A Sycophantic Ideology

What I feel on a daily basis is different

I have moments of anger

Others are full of happiness

Life’s’ jubilation

Others dark constrained and chemically erased

My position is stereoscopic on life's balance beam

I manage to teeter thru this tunnel of fixations

That I neither understand nor want to

Because I'm not fixed on any

I want what I want and have what I don't necessarily need

What I write is meant to enlighten

To comfort and challenge the reader

If every third line is read and the others forgotten

You will simultaneously see what I really am and that is challenging at best

I'm nothing more than an instrument that has been instructed to relay messages

That is instructions for life

What life is up to you?

The vehicle has no wheels a motor gears and is full of fuel

Do you understand how it moves?

The screws are loose the frame badly bruised it's eyes shifty but still allowed to move

Oxygen depleted

Nitrogen abundant

Remnants of a carcass are illustrated through signatures

But the outcome is inconclusive

The shoes are tied with loose laces

His hands rinsed in dirty water

His eyes full of pain

Yet his tears are pure

I am Miseries Company on the loneliest of nights and loves partner when hate is busy

Read this with closed eyes and see what I see

Then die because you won't be missed

If the shoe fits then

Why not wear it?

When it rains the world cries

Because it starts with a single tear then multiplies

Life's caterpillar

In a world of butterflies

How ugly is that?

E.V.O.L

Staring in her eyes

I see the future

No

Our future 

So I thought

It turned out to be the land of make believe

I cry inside 

Wishing Hoping

That maybe one day

She would see what I see

A life filled with love

Happiness

A family

I know we both longed to have

Sharing times

Where we would just stop 

Look at each other

Smile and Laugh

Only wanting the chance to lie across her chest

My head snuggled between each breast

Listening to her heartbeat

Not missing a second

While she touches me so sensually

Giving me chills

That go deeper than deep

Causing a sensation overload

I had hoped

In the future to look into our child's eyes and see her face.

Thinking

Believing  

Knowing

That after all this time it was worth the wait

Something is different 

Something is wrong 

Duh

It's called reality

And it's finally kicked in

I find myself just sitting in this car

My car!

Stuck helplessly in love

Not traffic

Still wondering what happened

Knowing that there is no “us”

There is no "we" 

Her and I could only go but so far

And our expiration has been reached

I talk so much to my partners because I aim to teach

But even I wasn't aware of what truly lied beneath

She could never do any wrong in my eyes

I believed all she said

Knowing it was lies

She was my definition of purity

How pure

Obviously

Not pure enough

I longed for her touch wanting it needing it

Even though it hurt me so much

Never

Say never

Because I’m far from naive

I just put my intuition in the back, and allowed my heart to take the lead.

Now do you see why I don't dance?

They say, "It's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all"

Which is true

And in the face of adversity stand tall

Because at some point in time

Even Angels must fall

Did you get that?

Just think about it

After all is said and done

Titles, Situations, People, Arguments

Are irrelevant

I would've remained by her side to the end of time 

Even if hell froze over and pigs were able to fly

It's what I call Unconditional E.V.O.L

Glory

The darkest edge fills the most space

Confronted and questioned about so many things

I wish I could just erase them all

The embrace that I once longed for feels different

And I identify it with the loneliness of the times in which we live

I myself am the most negative, positive, motivated and despised person that you will ever see

With fans who hate to like me because they're not like me

Which gives them more reason to dislike what they can never be

These are the very things that help me determine the differences between us

 I long for days when talks of prosperity and success are nothing more than the side bar of the conversation

Because we're all experiencing it

Instead of being accepted

I am widely criticized for what I don't do

And what I have become in a general sense

I literally don't care

(Except when it's coming from the ones I love)

I guess even at my age I'm entitled to dream of bigger things

Most of which will never be

Because we live in a world where people lack the zeal, to be anything more than what they already are

We look up in the sky for them

But the truth is we're the stars

So how come we all don't shine?

It is only when I close my eyes that I understand the truth of society

I named my pen instead of myself because I fear the notoriety

Enchantment

Love is sitting on the porch

Just thinking about life

Sitting there

Holding hands with the possibilities of her being your wife

Life is full of things we don't understand

But it doesn't matter as long as you're here with me

I just need you to hold my hand

Hold it tight and never let it go

Separate we're weak

But together who knows

We can tackle the world

But let's take our time

I have everything I need

As long as you're mine

If life were a video tape

I'd press rewind

So I can look in your eyes forever

Until I go blind

Mindset

Mindset like Potpourri

Glade plug in thoughts

Scented candles

Dropped ceilings

Lost salvation

Mind overload

Embalmed with nonsense

Transcended to oblivion

Misunderstood from the very beginning

Questioned to the end

Cry me something other than a river

Why not an ocean?

Limited success

Diluted dreams

Low fat ambition

I cringe at what we have become

Disillusioned in our own minds

Full of these idiosyncrasies

That keeps us apart

Transparent ideals that encompass nothing more than what we can see beyond our fingertips

Bathtub memories

In a world full of showers

Tend to get washed away

I was told that the storm is over and that peace and prosperity will come.

Then how come

We claim to live in states that are united

When the people that dwell them remain divided

We police the world and speak of a free land but our shortcomings we hide it

Divided we fall

Because only the poor and the minorities seem to march on

To secure freedoms and liberties that we ourselves don't truly have

Math is more than just 1+2

It is the sum of things that make us whole

The completeness of an individual

To be bigger than the moment

To let the petty situations of life go...

Only then will we be free,

Weighed down with the sins of life

I don't think you see

That's why when we pray

We're usually on our knees

Breakdown (Extended)

Optimum precision

Exact movement

Timing off

Moment lost

Never to be recaptured

A fluke

A mistake

A glitch in the scheme of things

Time stands still

Reminiscing about things that never happened

A delayed response

Muttering words

No recollection

Ambiguous terms

Misguided ideals

Heart felt talks

Algebraic equations that lead to nothing

You had me at hello

Then why did you say goodbye?

An empty nest

Made of falsehoods

Weaved with lies

The terms of his conception not easily mentioned

My heart weighs heavy

Life full of disdain

Pain subtracts my true interaction with the ideals of the current situation

No reset button

Trapped in a open area

Drowning in nothingness

Found without you

Lost with you...

My own freedom sacrificed the longer I remain

Why can't I walk out that door?

It's been determined

That the mind was assaulted

Basically fucked

But the body left pure

I've endured many things

All better than this

I give at the right times

You never give at all

I feel confined to my own mind

Because you never try

I wonder why love is what you speak of

Yet all you do is cause me pain

Your feelings are just that

Your feelings

Because

If you felt what I feel then it would be mutual

Instead of this

Your selfishness has divided us more than you can imagine

And I can't imagine how we ever got here

I remember a day when you cared so much

That my body would quiver at the thought of your touch

Blank

Cranium exposed

Its case empty

Pale...

Thoughts leaking on to the surface of life  

Mislead thoughtless misguided neurotic

Ethnocentric

Urban myth

Full of disdain

Exoskeleton compromised

Sweaty palms

Tank on empty

Mind overload apparent

Transparent ideals

In the minds vacuum completely sucked in

Totally unearthed

Because I wasn't rooted in my position

Which has abruptly changed

Here I lay unprepared and overexposed to the world

Ultraviolet rays combing my body  

The embrace warm 

I'm not sure if I should trust it

Still torn

From night till morn

It pops

But it's not corn

It cries

Yet it's not born

Eye of a hurricane

When we're way past the storm

I reach out and feel an awkward gesture reach back at me

Paralyzed by fear

Compelled by curiosity

All this time on display for their enjoyment

That's why they wouldn't respond to me

(I'm dead)

I don't exist

My thoughts continued long after the bullet hit

I’m blank

Blah

I laid my head on the clouds and threw my pillow in the sky

I just wanted to be accepted

But instead I was ostracized

I took a bath in the sea and sailed in my tub

What life is worth living if you never experience love?

I drank from the Milky Way and watched cows cross the sky

I can't do this by myself

I'm sure I won't survive

I unplugged the Sun and screwed bulbs in the sky

I wish I were free like a bird  

I'd be so happy if I could fly...

I had a cold date

Luckily I ate a hot lunch

People never have fun anymore with life the world is out of touch...

Closed Eyes

Closed eyes

No intentions of opening them

Just laying enjoying the quiet

I imagine a time when we never were and I reached out for you and felt nothing

This is because that's what I was before you came into my life

 I was nothing more then a hollow case that has been filled with your love

Love means different things to different people

But when I think of love

All I see is you...

I look away in disbelief and back again

And yet you remain

Not only have you conquered my heart

But my brain has also become a causality of your endless beauty

That extends a smile from ear to ear

 I can't help but imagine more for us

And I welcome it because I feel that it should be this way

I'm not sure if my prayers have been totally answered

But I know he got the idea of the message

When he set you in my life.

Basically what I'm trying to say is I love you and I never want to stop

If I could express love in drops

Then I would be your ocean

You would be my sun

Because you light up my life and thru the clouds your rays would shine out feeding the world...

0 (Zero)

Ridicule fueled thoughts

Anxiety driven conjecture

My voice flutters across the crowd

Piercing their very being

Devouring the souls of my enemies

The winding spirits acknowledge the delivery of my word

To the ears of the non-believers

Tears fill my eyes

For a reason that is not apparent to the audience

But obvious to me 

I have pushed myself toward the trees

It all seems as if it will pay off

I dare not count my eggs before they hatch

I'd rather play with the chicks

Once filled with so much anger it began to create a void inside me

I've since then moved to a different point in my own progression and I've found happiness in a way...

I rather not name it

Because I fear it will go away

Leaving me confronted by misery

And forced to relive those harsh days, that I've long forgotten...

A mere piece in the puzzle of life

To understand each of our own stories

In contrast to the bigger picture

We sometimes ignore it

Because it is this, which brings us, shame

It is irreprehensible

What the world has become

The rich will always be

But the poor are evolving

Opening up the flood gates of knowledge and prosperity

Searching for what is believed to be

A better life

I question this and it's postulates

I've removed the edges clean off the paper

Which limits the cuts

Since my life is like an open sore, that seldom heals

I go on and questions things that I don't agree with

Because in the end I trust what I feel

Read Me

The day has now drawn to end

The decision has been made

Questions answered

The trivial now a reality

I pick words out of the air as a child picks their nose

Not knowing if I myself am at fault

My reputation precedes me

I'm not sure if that's necessarily a good thing

Because they may restrict me from my environment and everything else that encompasses my very being

With that being said I question my own feelings

Taking them off pause

Moving toward repeat because this feeling that I find myself feeling is hard to shake and has ruined not only my day but the rest of my year

I refuse to cry tears because as a child I was not geared this way

I was taught to be tough and laugh emotion and feelings in the face

This has since replaced my heart

Because I'm too preoccupied with what everyone else cares about and not myself

I'm too far-gone because I know that help is needed

Yet I do nothing to attain it.

I don't know exactly how it happened but I'm pretty sure how it will end

Not by the lines on the paper

Or the ink running out of this pen

I share these thoughts with the world because it is somewhat therapeutic to self and allows me to free my mind

If only for a moment from the burdens I carry

I’m not trying to escape them

But ultimately embrace what I am and what I have become

I would tell you the story verbally

But it's better to be read, than experience off the tip of my tongue